For years, I never asked anyone for anything; except to ask what an appropriate bounty is for a site build, or asking for folk's merch links so I could buy it.

Stayed in my lane and out of the way.

Never bothered anyone, unless posting song links and sharing some journaling is a bother? Ok for others, just not me? Guess I was doing it wrong. I thought I was doing ok. I incorporated feedback. Improved.

Relentlessly supported everyone in this space for years, to the best of my ability. Treated everyone in this space with the utmost respect and kindness.

Why the gossip?

Heart hurts to see how late I am in figuring this out. What the fuck did I do? I had been catching the vibe for a while and just ignored it. I can't ignore it anymore.

Gossip is bullying.

It's cruel and ignorant.

If I keep my head down and work in the shadows, people gossip that I am hiding shit, call me a fed, liar, grifter. I never ask for anything from anyone. I am not employed by or funded by anyone. Anything I have shared/said can, has been, or will be verified. I literally have zero issue in sharing.

If I peek out and attempt to interact and share and do my building publicly, it is more of the same. What the fuck. It feels like I'm stuck in a gaslit twilight zone.

"Come out of your shell! Interact! Share what you're working on! Be yourself!"

Bullshit.

Damned if you do, damned if you don't. My heart hurts. 😔

If anyone is interested in facilitating progress, wants to meet and take or discuss any of the projects, or would like to contribute work (site work, editing, research), I am here and I am not fucking leaving.

I exist. You don't have to like it.

Nostr is for everyone.

I'm not kissing ass or begging for anyone's fucking approval or acceptance.

Want to gossip? Go fuck yourself.

Want to engage productively?

Let's fucking go.