Genuinely I’m not a cruel person. I just need to forget about someone from my past. Which I had for years but it all came up again last year. 😭 I feel it’s all been a cruel game of manipulation & I’m done playing it. If the person from my past truly wanted me, he would have made it known by now.

At this point, I’m dealing with a heartbreak that I never allowed myself to feel years ago. Why? I never allowed myself to recognize that I loved him from the moment we met. 🤣

It’s been good to recognize & accept that I love him. I’ll always remember the good times & miss my friendship. Knowing that he doesn’t love me is just the next part to healing. ❤️‍🩹 And that hurts more than I thought possible. Realizing this is the hardest heartbreak I’ve ever faced has forced me to accept parts of myself I didn’t want to.