You can't friend zone yourself and then expect her to form a romantic attachment to you. The average female brain does not operate that way.

I used to make the same mistake when I was much younger.

Sounds like a silly solution

i was really happy that this new best friend would respond to my texts daily.

there were too many feelings for her though. not helped by the fact that when she was in Oslo, we got intimate repeatedly.

seeing as she wasn't interested in a relationship, i tried to get rid of the feelings, but it doesn't really work like that. they kept returning, because, well, she was being herself, and i kept falling in love with that.