Because I had a near death experience which lead me to experience him and his all powerful love personally. Leading to further very intensive, emotional and powerful syncronicities and experiences which are hard to describe to someone who never felt this.

It was similar to this experience.

I was an atheist and scientifically minded all my life until this event. https://cdn.nostrcheck.me/cdefc8eaf63f9e0bb848f78efeda61efb11b7d3939ccaa1ab9c1fba27926a387.mp4