Haha dont worry we all started there. There is many implications to your life when you embrace Bitcoin. The nihilistic spending will be reduced due to you saving more for the future, as you will see that your purchasing power will be much greater the longer you hodl your sats. But other part of that is you will start to think long term more. Its much easier to plan for the future when tomorrow doesn’t look gloom and pointless from monetary point of view. Life doesn’t have to be a rat race. Without #Bitcoin the future would look depressing to me. They would steal so much of my savings. Every year eaten bit by bit, by fucking inflation with their money printing schemes.