Don't blame on yourself like that Jack! All i see is it is hard to understand you until is it like guessing instead of thinking and organize of who you really are. And info turned to be so messy in their talks. This is the sys i have seen. You are a good mamnered man your words are always asking for people's opinion. You are the forever learner. Hugs from me. Keep going on! You are like Data Sci guy,just know that!