just sitting here writing my previous post and as i'm finished the endless chorus of screaming, wailing children rises again from the gaps in my bedroom walls.

i can't get anything done with those fucking noises in my ears. it's not possible for me to not be provoked into irritation and it triggers my phobia like crazy.

i hated school, except when it was quiet and i was reading and writing things i was learning. in highschool the moment i was done eating i was in the library, and physical education was the most tormenting time i ever spent in my days at school.

all i hear in their voices is the sound of bullies tormenting everyone else and enforcing their will on the others, and the others being there without their will completely helpless to do anything to escape the torment.

and then if i go out to my balcony and look at what is physically going on while all this horrible wailing is going on, i see nonstop chasing and fighting and squealing and usually a few little quiet ones sitting in the corner for a minute before some asshats come and jostle them.

hate school. hate hate hate.