(written and shared apprx. 4 years ago...)
Random Dhyana (contemplation) further integrating...
Back in 2019 I was praying with grandma Ayahuasca... All night in full darkness ceremony in a room with very high vaulted ceiling. I always am seated right across the tall situated window on the wall behind the altar and most often almost always commune with the shimmering stars and moon, tree people and wild nature spirits outside who call my name at some point in the night or early morning.
At some point in the night, I could see the Moon and in my visions there was a small planet right next to it... I have no idea how I knew that it was Pluto but I did and there was this deep felt sense of camaraderie between us all... A teacher and an ally initiating and teaching me.
It wasn't until only last year on my birthday that an astrologer pointed to me the significance of my Pluto in Scorpio Conjuct my 29 degrees Libra Moon natal chart positioning. (I've had another astrologer mention that 5 years prior but it did not seem the emphasis caught my attention at the time (only relistening to the recording a couple weeks ago, I was like oh wow ok... Now this makes sense to me).
The realization that I am a Pluto woman after doing a bit of research on this positioning brought so much understanding and meaning to the intense path I've traveled in this life.
It was a different evening the same month I believe that I drank again. It was the night of May 17th 2019 a Scorpio full Moon, the last few days of my 33rd year. My prayer was just these words "Show me the Truth".
I experienced the most out of this world unconditionally loving and beautiful communion with the Infinite Divine Golden Light that is Christ Light... Like a shooting star from the infinite cosmic space traveling rapidly toward me arriving right ito my third eye... Jesus kissing my third eye and becoming a three layered visionary art piece enveloping the entire space across me behind the altar space... It was an all night communion, touching and opening my heart to experiencing the deepest love there is, teaching me the way and the truth viscerally.
(I did not grow up in a church or Christian. In fact, when I was six I was learning Arabic and to read the Kuran... All at the same time my sister was exploring going to Sunday church school with her friends)...
It was Aya 8 years ago that initiated my personal relationship with Jesus... And it was this beautiful day on a Scorpio Full Moon that the Christ consciousness spoke to me and clearly instructed me that my mission IS to spread Christ Consciousness on Earth.
I have seen the looks on people's faces and felt the judgement in their heart around me having a delusional Messiah complex. 😅
To be honest my own ego totally jumped in front of that message being delivered to me too that it was quickly veered of to say, "you don't need to know the how's".
Later on that summer I had more sober experiences with Jesus and BabaJi. In sunbathing meditation Jesus showed up an told me "when you walk your mission path you'll have nothing to worry about".
In studying astrology and my own natal chart that has been quite the emphasis for a bit now it is fascinating to deeper integrate and see how all of this is so interwoven...
I'd never heard on Midheaven until last year representing one's Vocation... Finding out that mine is at the last degree of the last astrological sign of the archetypal zodiacal wheel, oroborous, snake eating its tail, one foot in this world the other in the next, the shaman, the prophet, the mystic - Pisces in 29 degrees feels quite huge for me to contemplate on, deeper integrate and anchor in the knowing that we are constantly steered
and supported by so much to arriving on the path that's our mission, purpose, dharma and the the core essence of who we are.
...for those who are here to do The Great Work and actively evolving...
When you have a destiny to live, you'll be nudged in every which way from every direction to live and be an embodiment of the evolutionary journey of your soul for highest and best good of all.
Very few true answers lie at the surface of the very deeply deluded fast pace disconnected one dimensional superficial reality at which most of our civilization operates from and at.
I struggle and feel conflicted as the world filled with all those who are yet to open their eyes to see and their ears to hear can feel cruel, judgemental, challenging.
It causes one to wonder if she is delusional indeed.
And then I sit again with the mycelium network and right away Jesus, Buddha, BabaJi and other ascended and great masters nestle inside my body and being, becoming me, repeating "Remember who you are", opening my heart, expanding my awareness, deeper awakening me.
What a mystery is this journey.
There's no formula to living and walking your dharmic path... It is unique to you...
One thing though that is present is the message - transcend self doubt and fear, and embody your deeper knowing and truth with love, grace, compassion and trust. There are many who do have the eyes to see and the ears to hear.
And perhaps in our modern world the best way to connect with them is by starting a YouTube channel 😅 with these kinds of journeys, mystical contemplations and transmissions.
Contemplation complete. For now. 🫣😘🌠🌹🤍🧬🕊️❤️🧿
P.S. as a side note - the idea of first principles thinking and physics has been in my face quite a bit lately... As a nudge I feel that this might be important to weave in and embody a bit of an engineer frame of mind as well on this path I'm walking...
