I feel the exact same way. I had basically completely given up on the hopes of humanity with the direction the world had taken (not knowing at the time all the root causes and issues that i’ve come to learn through bitcoin research). Then shortly after these years of building disappointment and loss of faith in humanity, I lost my son to a rare micro-duplication disorder and it seemed any hope of a positive impact on future generations was gone. Bitcoin and Nostr have help opened my eyes to a whole new possibility of a future that i never even knew was possible (well i guess nobody did really haha, we are still discovering together!). I have a renewed vigor for life and a passion that has helped to give me direction with my life again after being in such a dark place and lost for a while…