That's an interesting take. I was using 'not failing this semester' to keep me going before but it's lost all utility now...

I think I stressed less about what I wanted to do when I didn't know the truth. Learning it seems to have done me a huge disservice. I shall have to think about ways to utilise it and see if I can't use it as motivation. Thanks, there's alot to think about. I'll look up those books when I'm on holidays.