All my life I have tried to treat people the same way they treated me. At some point I stopped imposing my company on my friends and relatives, which led to almost complete isolation from society. I see my best friend three or four times a year, and this has become the norm. I see my parents no more than five to ten times a year. If I didn’t have my own family, I would probably forget how to talk. I don’t even know if this is good or bad. I don’t experience a lack of communication and I don’t miss them much. I guess I’ll figure it out when something bad or good happens and I need to share it with someone. It’s just sad that life goes by day after day, nothing joyful or new, the same thing, and I have less and less strength and health every day.
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There's a reason solitary confinement is considered one of the harshest punishments.
In ancient times, the worst offenders were given a choice: death or banishment from society. They were considered equally tragic.
It's bad. So, why impose this on yourself?
Spend some of that free time watching @neroknowledge on Youtube. Once you realize that your only limitation is your own mind, you may choose to change it, and thereby change your reality.
There's literally nothing stopping you, except your own mind and the "shinigam" that youve created yourdelf.
If you believe your company is an imposition, it will be.
Thank you for your reply and valuable advice. No, i don't think my company is bad, but i just feel like i, like my interlocutors, are completely uninterested in trying to learn something about each other. Everything became boring and monotonous at some point, and relations with close friends and relatives inevitably cooled. It's a matter of lifestyle, you're right, but I'm really too lazy to change anything.