I've always been pretty stoic about my own, I spent too many of my teenage years thinking suicidal thoughts to be any other way. Plus regularly contemplating the glories of heaven helps perhaps....

I think when it comes to dad, we just never had that good of a relationship. Although, I'm the only one of his five kids who has spoken to him in years. I'm the only one he could have expected sympathy from but if that's what he wanted, it's probably not what he got. But he lived all his years making decisions with no regards to us and he might be about to regret that, or not... I don't care heaps either way. I just don't want to make terrible decisions that I will regret once he's gone. So yeah, if I can't convince him to get treatment closer to us, I will go visit him if he's around in July. But I'm aware that my motivations are so screwed that I honestly feel like a heartless b*tch.