I would consider everything you're going through a blessing in disguise. You seem like an intelligent and nice girl. Be happy that there is space in your life now that the person who couldn't fully appreciate you is gone. I think Buddha was the one who said that attachment is what leads to suffering. Let go and understand that you have a second chance to make your life exactly how you want it to be. So don't let this jade you and steal your sunshine. I hope what's looking for you finds you and that you find what you're looking for. ❤️