How to explain to people paralyzing anxiety is really hard to overcome? I know I'm lazy, but my heartbeat doesn't raise from my fat ass just because I need to get up and open the door. And then feeling of guilt from not doing the easiest tasks makes the anxiety worse.

Musicians often wonder why am I not nervous when I'm on the stage. I'm really not good and competitive enough to be bothered, found my peace with the possibility if screwing something up. We're just people, shit happens. Important is to learn from it and change things accordingly.

It's the damned little tasks of making a call or getting anything outside our apartment done. Nothing to be learned from that.