My stated purpose has been, for some time, to serve as a positive example to my children. This is my prime directive. Sure, there are other things I value, but above all else, this.

I don't know how this would change if my children no longer existed. That is something I don't care to think about. I suppose I would either find a new purpose, or things would go really poorly for me.

I needed to affirm this, because as this is my stated purpose, addiction cannot square with this purpose. That goes for any addiction - nicotine, sugars, caffeine, etc. Any amount of pretending it could be OK is complete bullshit cope.

GN nostr, it may be tomorrow before I send another note.