Really think about this life. Is this all? Is this it? Could this “reality” be reality? If it’s true, God would indeed be cruel and insane. But God is not insane. He only made the true, eternal, and perfect. Therefore you are what He is, because He made you like Himself. Ask whether He made this imperfect world for you. Why would He give you something that wasn’t perfect like Himself? You underestimate your creative abilities, as well as your ability to miscreate (in wrong perception).