Yeah man, obviously you know better as it was your dad. Sorry to hear you didn’t have the best relationship and hopefully it doesn’t gnaw at you. I was sticking up for the kind of dad that turns up all the time but the kid never realises the sacrifices that were made for him and how much he was loved (the dad being too old school to tell him!). I’m not sure if you have kids yet but since I had mine I discovered a new found respect for my folks and how hard it must have been for them. Peace brother