fuck start to modify my resume today and start to scroll the webpage about job, and I can clearly feel a tension in my body, like it still doesn’t want to make any changes and it’s so intense that cause my stomachache.

Ok ok i then gently tells the inner kid: it’s ok it’s ok everything is fine, I’m not gonna change immediately I will take it step by step don’t worry you are safe very safe.

And since my body doesn’t in a relaxing situation, I find myself have a intention of overeating. Like I just keep finding something to eat although I feel I’m quite blown.