I get that, it’s a common enough story. All I can really advise is getting your career and life in order, build expertise in some niche of your own, and ride it out from there. Once you meet women on professional terms you can get a lot better at dealing with them. Guys in my age group are slowly getting better like that, bit by bit.

There’s a bit of hope, but it’s gonna take a whole lot of work to even be able to buy some scratchers. Hope ya make it buddy