I can't watch it because I know it will anger me. I have survived medical violence. Where they simply railroaded me to ruin my body with their scare tactics and fear mongering that I'd die if I didn't let them do their procedures...
I am not better for it, and ...God.. I have so many, so many regrets.
All I can do is try to make nice things, colorful things when I have the time and wee bit of energy to do it. Hopefully I can gain some energy & healing back from making art.