I've got a bit of a moral dilemma going on inside me right now.

It's amazing to witness all of the development happening around #Bitcoin and #Nostr right now. I really love catching up every day to see what's in the works and what's being made - things are moving at a crazy rate. I think these tools will really advance society and encourage adoption of the ideals of freedom and self-detemination on a broad scale.

But there is absolutely a selfish part of me that wants these things to take off so that the value of bitcoin will allow me to exit the rat race, retire young, become self-sufficient, live comfortably, and set up my kids for success (if I ever have any). I feel guilty for wanting to see broad adoption and success for reasons that can be perceived as wholly lazy and self-serving.

I consciously realize this guilt was largely taught to me by the nature of our economy and American work culture, but it's hard to shake the subconscious negativity I feel towards myself because of my human desires. I mean, retirement is the goal for a lot of people, but I feel guilt for... wanting it sooner? for wanting it to come easier? for not wanting to continue devoting my time to institutions and businesses I don't believe in? Logically this negativity makes no sense.

I hope one day I can be nicer to myself.

For now I'll just keep watching Nostr blossom and keep living like the bitcoin I hodl doesn't exist.