Do you ever stop to think about your own mental illness?

I can't see letters or words in my head without specific effort. 3-4 letters into thinking about a word and it either becomes the image of the word or the emotion associated with it.

Numbers have always been easier, I can see them and play with them but they are not my friends. Even with numbers, I can't help but have an emotional reaction to them. Fuck odd numbers in general. Primes are better than the average odd number but they can still go fuck themselves.

2 is a whore.

4 is fine. Probably the number I feel most neutral about. The best I can say is it is 1/2 of 8.

6, 36, 216, 1296 have class, they are smooth, I like multiples of 6.

8, 64, 512, 4096 (and 2048) are sexy. If you divide by 8 than you make me happy.

#crazystr