I guess this sounded like I was complaining, but I actually like sitting at the nerd table and trying to change other people's lives for the better, even if they never notice or care. I don't expect the people at the other tables to even understand what we are doing. If they understood it, they would also be sitting at our table.

I notice. I care. I like building things and then watching other people use them and have better lives because I built it. That's very satisfying. I never wake up and have no reason to get out of bed. And I can grow old gracefully because my self-esteem was never built upon my appearance.

Also, the nerdy table is the one I find the most fun and having fun is an underrated activity.