Please do!! I can seriously relate. There’s a certain ritualism that religion offers that may be comforting to some but it doesn’t do much for growing stronger in faith or relationship with our creator for others.
My pastor once said we should read the Bible with a plan and since taking his advice I not only read more but I learn more and have grown even closer (and I’m no way near where I feel I should be).
I think reading with the intent of understanding and learning the gospel is beautiful. I’m excited for you!! You never know how GOD’s going to use you.