BtcPins, you are the guy who thinks a 28 inch pizza with 4 slices is smaller than a 28 inch pizza with 8 slices.
Not all hope is lost, while your childhood teachers may have failed you to admitted a point of despair, and it is not as easy to learn the older you are, you can still learn how this math works. Its not so complex that you need college, so that's the good news, but it will take intensional effort to overcome this failing.