I haven't read his book, but now I'm thinking to... off hand, the struggle against moving in "right", has always been towards the perspective of what is right. Questioning strongly what one was told was right and finding out it is not as black and white as instructed. In fact, we discover over time that that righteousness required of another was benefiting more the requestor than the instructed.

Your faithfulness isn't in question. The struggle isn't against God... it's against your idea of the God you were told existed.

What if you had no shortcomings. What if the devine was what within you and accepting of you as you were?