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My mom doesn't get why I react the way I do when I hear mainstream radio or happen to see mainstream TV at her house.
I just feel fucking sick every single time!
I don't know. It's kind of like vertigo which is just one thinking about what it would be like to fall.
Well in that case I just keep thinking what it would be like to just eat all that shit without even thinking about it. 🤮🤮🤮
It’s insane bro.
I feel so disconnected from friends and family these days. They’re all zombies who can’t think for themselves. And if you even try to talk about it you get some passive aggressiveness back or “if you have to be constantly aware of what’s fake and not, you are not really living your life”
That's the thing. Most of the time it's just you being a pain in the ass with all the non sense. "Just enjoy life", "everything and everyone isn't bad or broken" blah blah.
Well yeah ok, I want to enjoy life, but like a real one where I'm not just a tool man. 🤷
The way I get by with my most of my friends, who I love anyway, is focusing on trivial things which don't matter like sports or music. But they know what I think anyway and sometimes, when they get angry because some event in their life makes them realize that something's wrong, they are more open and curious. It doesn't necessarily last but that's something I guess.
And then I keep the real talk for the couple of persons that I know I can really engage with.
And more than anything, I have Nostr...
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