Hey brotha. Thx for being vulnerable and sharing That not only takes a lot of courage but, in my opinion and experience, is an important first step towards healing 🙏🏻
Two modalities that worked well for me and so many others I know (including my wife and adult children) are intensive breathwork and plant medicine. (Psilocybin and ayahuasca, specifically)
They help reset your nervous system and offer a way through, where often none other seems possible.
Lots of info on all of this “online”…..
Godspeed and good luck my friend 💗🧬🦋
PS
No matter what happened in your past, you are worthy of love. That I know for sure brother.