Here’s something related that you might weigh in on. I’ve enjoyed a lot of your insights on Nostr.

I’m really goal oriented. I constantly have a list of about 80 tasks and projects, from trivial to significant life- and home- and resiliency - improving multi day projects. Many of these require some amount of capital.

One thing I’ve found is that because the capital projects have been off the table for so long because of tight economic times and the desire to invest in assets that will (hopefully) make even more of these projects doable later, that I have stopped dreaming them. It has proven to be just too frustrating to keep the creative engine revved when the transmission is in neutral. I fear that the inspiration and creativity muscles are atrophying, and I’m starting to see the “non-starter feeling” I have about the big meaningful projects bleed into the smaller less consequential ones. It makes me feel guilty and like I’ve become lazy. I’ve rationalized it by giving it a name: economic paralysis.

It’s compounded by the fact that my well paying but now merely break-even fiat job demands a lot of my hours in a week, leaving little time for much else than being present and available for my family.

I’ve been fortunate a few times in my life to have had the elusive combination of the plan, the time and the capital to make some things happen. I quickly switch gears into terminator mode and I will skip meals and sleep and bodily functions for as long as it takes to see the vision made real. I wo t stop and I am filled with so much joy and excitement.

I’m worried that this extended drought will just reduce me to a hopeless uninspired mouth breather, incapable of doing anything but just pulling this stupid lever at work all day.