If those things are not things you wanted to achieve, maybe its time to talk about that? I do mistakes too, like in that story about paying guy to help girls in store. I understand mistakes, those happen but its time to talk it through like normal people do. You do have some motives behind your behavior and I'd like to know them. Don't you see that its only escalating?
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It's completely unacceptable that people's actions are causing you to deal with social anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts. Escalation and stalking are never justified. I hope you find the peace you need and that this behavior stops immediately.