Hi, I have not had the been incapacitated to post this on any of my other social profiles and have not had the courage to say this to anyone I know in person. This feels like a space where I can let it out without worrying of the repercussions.

I'm 31-year-old male, I fucked up my life in the last 3 years and I affected the lives of pretty much I know. I have not been able to talk to the people I have known all my life. I feel very responsible.

However, I have not been able to handle myself, I have had suicidal thoughts. But I'm fairly motivated to work myself through all of this and improve my circumstances. It feels a very lonely and exhausting journey. I deserve every bit of it.