I am alone around here, unless people need me. I know already I will be alone on that day, not even with my son (and I do not want to bargain with the devil to change that).
I chose to live my sadness fully when it emerges, let it flow, it is a sign of what matters. Sometimes I chose to communicate it. Maybe it is to navigate the meltdown, maybe it is to ask for help, but it is also to remind people to appreciate those things they have and I do not. I see so many not appreciating what I would kill to have.
This wave of sadness will pass. All my emotions have their word to say.