I hear you. 😊 I think the idea of living happily forever after which the one perfect person for you is a complete fallacy. And life just isn’t purely, constantly extraordinary to begin with.

If a good enough lover to go through life with is not your jam, you could also try having many good enough lovers - simultaneously or not. But the expectation of finding the perfect one and that they would be the only one and that it would make your life extraordinary for the rest of it, I don’t see anything good that can come out of that.