Sadly, that’s what your doing to yourself.
Seek help, and not from those that wish you harm because they hate themselves as well.
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nostr:npub1m8d6pcrjhke48hasqgx7zkgjdt68u60px04frw753697mcmnyr3q365d6q I'm happier than I've ever been, so cope harder. I'll be fediblocking nostr pub, so you can go fuck yourself.
Good ✌️
I hope you get the help you need.
A few month or years from now, when you’re close to ending your life I hope you remember this interaction. In your remembrance focus on this:
“I am. That’s all I ever needed to be. I won’t follow through with this. I accept myself and reject the people that groomed me.”
Best of luck.