"Alcoholism" is just cannon, not a medical diagnosis like "alcohol dependency syndrome".
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If you have been captured by this or similar "12-step" cult ideology. Don't panic. Seek counseling. Get some lab work done. You might not even be an "alcoholic". I personally don't believe in the term "alcoholic" anymore, it's just more recovery canon.
Find friends man, online or not, they are essential to keep you on track. Meanwhile, you have a new follower on Nostr 🔥
Lots of awesome sober folk here - keep it up 💜