grifter coulda just been like: i gotta come clean i am such a mega grift bb r u down for this life of crime & shenanigans? 😎
she was a minor noble
you know how boring that life is?
she prolly woulda been like: that's even better fuck dying in a war
like truly just square up with catherine
perkins tf
ya either find out she never loved you actually or she always did
it really isnt that hard
i say that sympathetically
i get that so many people would rather not know the answer
but life is worth being brave i think
in matters of the heart
eventually dont you wanna know if your wife loves you for you?
like would love you as a homeless dude too?
i would visit jack in jail
i would invent a way to make tetris happen & invent new games just to help pass the time
i literally do not care
about anything
imagine fucking that up cos scared to diminish fucking what???
nothing is about me whatsoever
it is him
scared to see himself diminish
he is literally worried
if he disappointed me
the look on my face
would kill him
not cos of disappointment i was feeling in my heart. that is irrelevant.
just the look on my face
it is about the bounce
like photography
im a white wall or poster board
all image
it is an image
it is anima
Not Me.
not me the person
he literally does not know me the person
he is completely fucking trapped by his own unconscious wearing my face
what a fucking bummer
tale as old as time
reflection
narcissus
a hallucination
for comfort
inside aloneness