That’s perspective. You can fix that if you like. Absorb some stoic philosophy that can adjust the lens through which you look at events that come your way. Find the thought structures that address valid or wasteful worry, healthy or pointless preparation, the extent of your responsibility, how bodily feelings communicate from the unconscious to the conscious mind, what to do or not do about what is outside your control. Superstition and dread creep into any void not filled by mental intent. There’s peace at the end of the study. Inner peace is within reach through knowledge after the awareness you’ve shown. Just a few tactics are needed at key points. It’s not even hard once your ideal ones are identified and defined.