He fumbled around in the dark
On an epic journey in a distant unfamiliar land
Searching for anything to ground him
He found his phone inside of a fuzzy cave
He opened his eyes and suddenly he was out of the darkness
The sight of his cracked screen brought the memories rushing back
The pain
The sorrow
The uncertainty
The anger
Throwing his phone at the wall
The raw emotions
He hugged his phone as if it were an old friend
He began to draw
As he was drawing
He felt nothing but utter sadness
He missed her so much
It was almost unbearable
He wondered if she was out there, somewhere, feeling the same
The confusion
The anger
The pain
Or did she move on
He didn't even know what day it was
He was held captive for over three days by the Russians
But he had no idea how long he had even been in that room
Suddenly the fog started to lift a bit
He looked at his phone and all the drawings
Nothing but people crying
Flames
Smoke
Destruction
Then...
He realized he was holding his phone
His phone that he smashed when he heard the news of the accident
His phone that he left at her house while he waited for her to come home
Did Mac go to her house?
Why would he?
How did he get in?
How did he know where it was?
He had so many questions
He tried to collect himself
He realized that the phone had been tucked away under a dresser
He found it while crawling on the carpet
He got back down on the floor and looked under the dresser
There was the bracelet he got her
He wanted to ask her to marry him
So he decided to get her a promise bracelet
He was going to tell her that he promised to love her forever
And see how she felt
He was too scared to get a ring so soon
He changed the lock on his phone and put it back next to the ring
Then he walked out to the kitchen
No one was around
He grabbed some water and tried to sort his thoughts