There is an equal and opposite force tugging at my heart, as described be apostle Paul.

However, I would’ve loved to have more fun, before experiencing a force of higher love, and good, calling me to my first years, about 1 - 5.

Yet, I am not a prophet, holy, or anointed, but I swear there is an invisible pure hand behind my every day occurrences.

Let’s consider today. I was going back through a list of all the women in my life, and trying to understand why I really do not like women, yes, it was in prayer form, but meditative.

I don’t get along with my mother, but through time, my eyes have been opened to my faults.

Yet, it seems the struggle began at the Garden, when woman was cursed to desire man, and man to overpower her.

Yet, the fall of Eve, is incomparable to the choosing of the Holy Mother of Jesus, Mary.

See, God skipped man for a holier purpose, to give hope to the trillions of people who will come after we die.

The first holy man? Adam? Was taken.

Yet, through all this I feel a stubbornness in my heart to fully submit to God, so it takes effort, and if all of you start seeing things in your life, it is pointing higher, and if you know what you experience on a daily basis, you’ll know that truth that sets man free.