I know I need a #career shift and I don't know if I can pull it off.

I busted my ass breaking the glass cieling in telecom and having done so, I learned that I don't enjoy being a people leader. I'm better independently because I work well in bursts of super high productivity, and I'm at my best if my environment is conducive to that.

Having a team of people to support all day every day definitely isn't conducive to that. It's better suited by steady consistency, and over the years I've learned that isn't the way I work. I can get a ton done, but I need to be able to hop in and hop out. I'm not sure if I'm making much sense.

I also really want to work in a field that I'm happy to go down the rabbit hole on. Because if I don't, I waste good time going down the rabbit hole on something else. I'm trying not to be insanely picky -- I just want to lean in to what my brain wants to lean into. Because fighting against that has been hard, and unfulfilling.

But with a good job, wife and kids... Probably isn't in the cards.

... Is this Livejournal?