I've been coping hard with this crushing pain since late October...
I hesitated to mention my struggles, thinking I could strongman through the turmoil. However, I've come to realize that I need love to fill the void left by what I've lost. The only way is to open up, and in doing so, my emotions poured out.
Sometimes we are more miserable trying to hold the pain at bay than just feeling it. Opening up, as you say, usually means waves of grief, but there's usually a softening over time if we just let ourselves feel it. Resisting is exhausting and can keep us stuck - like needing to keep our whole weight pressing into a door to keep it closed.
I'm just fed up feeling sad everyday.
Oh, here come the waves, doing their thing—crashing, pulling me under. Grief's tight grip? Yeah, it's playing breath thief in this drowning drama...
