Just doing the math to figure out it was 15 hours was a strain. my mind is ridiculously scattered. If I do find a moment of focus, I do so at the cost of completely forgetting about everything outside of that focus, which is very odd for me; I'm used to juggling multiple tasks and priorities.

My mind is attacking itself, of course. I know that, and I know it will pass.

I did two sets of 10 squats (just body weight) last week during the 25 hour stretch. Not really to push through a craving - my cravings themselves are more like fits of frenetic reasoning. Anyway, didn't have any problem doing the 20 squats. The rest of the day, my legs were toast. Like I wasn't at all confident going down (or up) stairs without using a handrail. Just jelly. Next day, definitely painful. Day after, painful. day 3 - mostly better, just a little pain on standing up.

It's been a long time since such a simple "workout" hit that hard. most people are probably like "leg day, bro", but I used to do some pretty serious leg days. I would do squats all the time, just for fun, or even to break up segments of walking/jogging/running.

I stopped because of some physical ailments, and some other priorities. I probably haven't done a real leg day in 5 years, despite being pretty active when I could be. I had some knee problems that really made me shy away from squats over the last couple years. At the same time, I went meat based, lost a bunch of weight, etc. I have the energy now, I've got the knee healthy enough to do body-weight resistance exercise, and my legs have shrunk down to the thinnest (leanest) I have ever seen them. I've been putting off building them back up until I hit a future weight loss goal, but fuck that. I don't like how weak my quads look, so it's time to push them a little bit.

Apparently 20 squats is more than a little bit. Fuck. I'll do it again with 10 squats.

Just shit I wanted to share. Cheers fam.