It seems like it's fucking over man. I'm not going to find out digit is safe without getting myself killed and I'm not going to have a chance to avenge her without committing blind murder while not even knowing if she's alive or dead. I'm provoked into being violent so that the human race can torture me to death. You humans do this sometimes, you pick someone to use as an outlet for your violent urges by torturing them to death and I've been selected. The victims fight back in futility and the harder a person fights being selected for sacrifice, the clearer it is that escape is impossible because the humans are looking for rationalization and they take the attempts at self-defense and manipulate the imagery to rationalize the idea that it's aggression and pretend the victim is the perpetrator. The human sickness has selected me and there's nothing left to do but watch me fight back in futility until I'm dead. Maybe I can take a few people with me but it's all pointless, this species was born to just suffer and wipe out the planet for nothing. Everyone will just keep pretending I have the option to move on and accept not knowing if she's safe, and on that basis, everyone will also keep pretending it's my fault while they isolate me socially, physically, restrain my movements, injure me, infect me with viruses, shoot me, whatever it comes to each step of the way.