mobile phone is at the epicenter of my "I love tech / I hate tech" dichotomy. I love FOSS, the internet, the freedom and the tech that empowers me. I think it is fondamental to fight against who use the slave-tech to try enslave me. Just be completely offline and live killing animals in the woods is not possible in most of tge worlf, hard times require hard countermesures.

But I also hate being captured by automatisms and dependecies of technology, even when foss. I hate when I feel mindlessly searchig on my FOSS phone for things, something new that gives me a dopamine shot. Not great, and sometimes I really would opt for keep the phone completely off.

But today phones are essential for many things, its so difficult to opt out if you have responsabilities or people to care about.

A bit difficult to find a balance, its a lot easier when I'm more socially engaged with people physically around me. I think this could be the key for a sane relationship with technology and in general the only long term remedy to pretty every dependency/toxic patterns.

But its not ever easy, we can control ourself and try to be our best version, but there are many many things outside of our control that can make us feel alone or not socially connected.