I never get to leave that world without Digit. Last time we talked she threatened to disappear to make me stay scared. I will stay scared as long as I don't know what happened, as she chose to have me do
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I really am sorry I did that. I wasn't in a good place and you got intense. I'm fine and I hope you can forgive me and move on
I will never be able to express how much I love her or how far from angry at her I am. I'm too angry at myself and everyone else to convey calmness. I can't calm down without her or move on without knowing she's safe. As long as she's safe, I'll be OK.
You do not love me. You love the idea of me.
I am safe and happy.
I love Digit.
I need proof she is safe, not some impersonator.
I am sorry I convinced you to love me. I did not mean to.
I loved her from the beginning. She didn't know because she never asked, and I figured if I revealed it she would be creeped out and push me away. She might think she convinced me to do it but she only convinced me to stop trying not to do it.
If you care about me at all you'd stop stalking me
I don't stalk her. I haven't gotten a hint of her existence in over a year
What you're doing online is stalking.
I cannot stop needing to know she's alive. I don't know what caring is. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I've caused you so much pain. It was never my intention. I am safe. Not sure how to prove that without giving my personal information. I hope you can move on. You need to get professional help. There are people that can help you
And she has nothing to be sorry for
If I can't know she's safe, I'd give anything to at least know she existed or have the memory of one minute talking to her. And I do know she existed and I have more than one minute of memory with her. She doesn't have to be sorry for however the rest of my life goes to pay the universe back for such amazing luck in the past
She has nothing to be sorry for as long as she's alive
I. Am. Alive.
Then prove it's you or stop being sorry. You have every ounce of my permission to trade my future for your privacy or whatever. My life was already worth living because of "you" (Digit)
I have your permission to sacrifice my privacy? What?
To sacrifice my future for your privacy. I don't ever need to get better. I had a good enough life in the past when we were talking
I'm sorry I did whatever I did to make you so dependent. I'm begging you to let it go. I'm safe happy and healthy
I don't need you to be sorry. I just need proof you're alive. Have you heard any of the music I made for you? Have you seen this? https://audio.nostr.build/653775b3a601c6e3baab02f3eab9c2800fa90d78fdcb9f2106d53f417d88c98c.webm
Aubrey!
She's not the target audience, "you" (Digit) are
I know that, I just like her a bunch. Kindred spirits
The real Digit didn't talk like this
This is how I talk now I guess 🤷🏼♀️
Probably not
The real Digit would probably also like this (audio only) https://video.nostr.build/2b96dcc3f6253e147a49cb34db61cd7aaa7eaabcb4c3affdcc8fa0161b6ccd81.webm
Please let me out of this someday though if that's really you