Fwiw I understand where you’re coming from (having said many of these same things), but this is contrary to the Bible. The reformers (including Calvin, and even Zwingli) rejected this, as did all church fathers.

The only support you’ll find for this is in the gnostic heretics that also denied Christ’s divinity.

It’s part of a larger free will debate. And I highly recommend going down that rabbit hole as ultimately it brings one closer to Christ.

This debate was also one of the main differences between the Pharisees and the Essenes and the Sadducees … it’s not a topic solved within man’s rationality, but can only be solved by the dual nature of Christ (as both God and man).