Number one reason why I can't let myself go blind is I am alone, and I am not used to help nor do I want to be dependent

I learned to survive with nothing, and still have a decent sense of the worth of my life

Much of that time I was intermittently borderline starving

When I have money, I drink and I consume too much sugars and carbs, yet I can't escape from the feeling I felt better when I had nothing

So, to have wealth, yet starve myself from time to time seems like the formula, and the bitter pill I must swallow, so I'm psyching myself

I can't let this disease take my sight

I will have no freedom, no wealth, and no choice