Sounds like you need to believe in yourself my friend 💪🏽 start small, build confidence in your ability in a skill you enjoy, build self esteem and self respect will follow, find the right people on here (as I’m sure you know there’s all sorts) reach out, see if you can find someone doing what you enjoy nearby. The great thing about this platform is that it’s small, you can get the attention of some pretty successful people if you put the work in 🫡 your life is yours to live, good luck