Just stop breathing.
If your will is strong you attain mahasamahdi.
Or just find a way to die and not involve anyone else in the process.
It seems like the subconscious parts of you that know the proper value of existence are asking for help. Then things mean, "ending life" (there is no such thing) with dignity implies a set of values. It is worth to find a proper way to "opt out" or "leave"
There is no such thing as death, or a "world indifferent" . Who's world? would be separate, this world, from you asking for assistance ? It's a bit weird that the whole world that you are is asking for proper ways to die (change) not caring.
If the world is indifferent how is he asking?
If meaning is lost why would it mean different to "leave" one way or another ? (Leave where? Where are you?)
Life is the only thing there is. And it cannot cease to exist.
Because who is realising you exist or not? If you don't exist how would you tell?
Life is all there is.
It's eternal and infinite.
But that does not imply it doesn't have any meaning or value.
You can try to say "life is meaningless" or there is meaning if we attach meaning to it. Like life is one thing, the one experiencing it attach or not meaning to it is another thing. There is no separation.
If life decides to attach meaning to itself doesn't it means something? Or life attaching meaning to itself means nothing?
Man, we can merry go round with this intent of logical reasons but they don't make any sense.
They cannot be sensed I mean.
Sense is the world speaking. Sense is common to all life.
And you asking for resources, assistant, founding opportunities, it makes sense that values in you are creating hierarchical structures in your neurons and cells and life flowing in and out of you. And you seem to find meaning because it made sense to you to type this and communicate with life (yourself)
But what you actually wanted to communicate was:
"I think logically life and events and myself (the world) don't have any meaning or value."
Yet:
"All my being, all the world, all life in me, flowing through me, as me, with me, senses there is some sense. And wants to make sense of it. And wants to grasp the meaning of it (of my self) by showing interest and asking for assistance, founding, alternative pathways"
Alternative from what? Perhaps the feeling of tragedy? Sure you are not realising the power you have to write comedies. (Hint: It's in your heart)
My only sincere recommendation is for you to go suicide properly with a nice dose of mushrooms or Ayahuasca. Or any other plant medicine, peyote, san pedro, bufo.
As a good "final act of agency" (final? are you sure is the end of what?) (who's agency?)
