😊 sure. I think it all boils down to standing in who I claim to be. Idk if it’s a push pull or a tiny battleground of the spiritual warfare currently underway.

I’ve chosen to follow Christ and I proclaim it. There is responsibility in taking that path. I thought I was ready but I misunderstood 😂😂 Satan is a deceiver and will use certain things to manipulate Christ followers off their given path. He’s relentless and can’t stand when people choose the victor. The conflict came from me justifying wrong instead of doing what’s right. I willingly gave into sin.

Now that time has passed, I can tell you I definitely feel more charged about it than I did before. I willingly chose to turn away from my rock, provider, and savior. I was so caught up in being popular I made myself unrecognizable. It was gross 🤢 I’ve lamented and repented. I never want to be in a position where I misrepresent myself to fit in or live a life that’s not sustainable/real ever again. I’m more on guard now because of it.

I’m so grateful that choosing Jesus brings forth forgiveness. That charges me because my life was spared. The stuff I was getting into could’ve gone super wrong but I was given an opportunity to stop, turn around, and get back on track. I cut the people and things out of my life that didn’t align with who I am and I asked for the strength to move forward. It’s hard but blessings all my life have come from my Heavenly Father. It’s foolish to confuse them with coming from anyone or anywhere else.